Sunday, June 10, 2012

first days at home with Cavin



 JUST BORN!!  anna got me this cute stickers for his growing stages, this is the first one!!  I can't wait to see how he grows!! 
 Cavin smiles a lot when he sleeps and when he's hungry or full!!
 our first day home as a family!! I wish everyday we could be home together!!
 These two boys are the love of my life and will always be!!  I LOVE YOU MARCUS and CAVIN
 Cavin with is first friend, just happens to be his cool Cousin Troy!!  8 months can really make a big difference! 
 Cavin's first walk in the carrier!!  he slept through the whole thing!
Cavin loves to sleep with his hands close to his face!!  we had to put socks on his hands cause he scratches so bad!
I have lots of pictures of cavin but not with me so I had to make sure and get some when he's just little so he always knows how much I love him and really love to hold him!!!  

 PAPA watched Cavin while I got my oil changed in the car and this is how we found them? sleeping!!! 
 This was Cavin's first day of church!  we only went to sacrament, but it was good to get out and good to feel the spirit so strong and thank Heavenly Father for my sweet baby Cavin and amazing Husband Marcus!
 I'm trying to get more rest, I think the high of having a baby and sooo happy is starting to catch up with me, I didn't feel tired the first week of getting up all night but now I am so I'm trying to at least lay down and rest with Cavin on nap a day and I usually just lay and stare at him cause I just think he is sooo perfect!!  I really love him!
 Cavin hates to be naked so hates bath time!! but he starting to enjoy it a little more if I shower first and get the room nice and warm for him!!!   
 one week old!! wow Cavin is already growing so much I can't believe it!  I just love him more and more! 
 hands by his face again, it's just sooo cute!!  I had to share!
 our first walk in the stroller Cavin slept through the whole thing!! he seemed to like the fresh air!
 Cavin loves music already! I turned my phone on for him and he just stared into space!!
 Cavin with his DAD they are best friends already!!  Nothing makes me happier and makes my heart melt more!!
Cavin's first mail!!!  funny that it's bigger then him!!  
 All ready for church!!  he is just so stinkn' cute!!  I love this little guy!!  he makes me just laugh! 
I had to get my weekly picture with my sweet baby boy!! I love him!  love to cuddle and sing to him, I love to watch him and all his little faces he makes.  I love being a mom!  it's hard at times  but worth it.  I think the hardest part is not feeling good enough for this perfect little guy, you just want to do the very best because they are so prefect!!  I think it's like Heavenly Father we want to do our best and try to be perfect because he does so much for us, I want to be the best mom because I have been given so much!! 

Friday, June 8, 2012

I love being a MOM!


So I haven't been great about up dating my blog because all my dreams have come true!!!  I love being a mom! I love just holding my baby and loving him.  I love my amazing husband that is hard working to provide for our family!  Everyone says to sleep when the baby sleeps so I try to just hold him for cuddle for at least one long nap a day, but I can't fall asleep most the time because I just love to look at my sweet baby Cavin, he brings tears of Joy to my eyes, he is everything I have ever dreamed of and more.  He prefect in every way!  I love waking up with him in the night because it's our special time, (yes I'm super tired but I love it)! so I a couple of things I love about being a MOM,
after he has a good feeding he usually falls off and has milk all over his face and this happy, thank you Mom look on his face and it makes me so happy to know I did that, I made this milk for my baby and I made him happy and full.  I'm the one helping him grow big and strong.
I love how he knows me, he looks for me when I talk to him, when I hold him he calms down, I love that he feels safe and loved with me, there is no greater feeling then feeling loved and needed, and he makes me feel that way!
I love when people say I'll give him back when he starts crying, I know it's the joke, but I love it, because I love that I'm the one that calms him down, I'm the one that makes him happy, I'm the one that can feed him, only me!!  What a special special feeling to know I'm needed to help this little baby grow and be happy.
I really love being a mom!!  a lot of morning I'll feed Cavin and then he'll go back to sleep and so I'll lay him by Marcus while I shower and get ready for the day, When I get out and see these two boys sleeping and cuddling together my heart just melts!  I love them so much both of them!!  I love when Marcus gets home from work and he just looks so excited to see us!!  I love that I can hand Cavin to Marcus while I get dinner or clean up a little and Marcus just takes him and loves him and the just relax together.  I don't worry about Cavin with Marcus I can trust him and he is so good with Cavin.
I feel so blessed to have married a guy who wants me to be a mom, (my dream)  he works 5 jobs so I can be home with my baby.  I miss Marcus horribly and wish we just had millions of dollars so we could just all stay home together, but I'm so grateful Marcus is a loving husband and father and understands this is so important to me, yes we have to cut back on some things but this is totally worth it!!  I love My boys so much!! I feel like I have the best Job in the WORLD!!  I love being a mom and a wife!!