First big baby purchase

So I've been so excited for this baby since day one, I just want to get stuff and get the room ready and just get him here!!  Even before I was pregnant I thought I'd do cloth diapers, I think from the Philippines I thought this would be a great idea!  I like it for a couple reason, mainly, for the money we could save.  Here my research average baby goes though 8-10 diapers a day (less as they get older)  but a pack of 120 diapers costs about 20 dollars at wal-mart we're looking at 40 to 50 dollars a month in diapers.  Say they're in diapers til 2(most kids are closer to 3).  $600 a year and $1200 for 2.  This is a rounded number!  not to mention 2, 3, 4 plus kids!!!   
Well cloth diapers will cost me about $250 for everything that I need for the baby's life plus, if you take care of them, 2, 3, and 4 kids!!!  I figure it's worth a shot, I think what's a couple loads more or Landry?   So I bought some cloth diapers off the Internet and they got here last night!! I'm so excited for them!  I'm sure we'll have days when a throw away diaper will be great, and I'll keep some around, but this is what I'm going to do and try at least for 2 or 3 months to make my money back!!
I'm not a super greeny green person but I do know this is a lot better for our environment so it can't hurt! Marcus isn't totally sold yet but I'll do 90% of the diapers so I think I get to make this decision!!

Love of a Mom

The past two days have been a new experience for me,  A lot of people wrote on my facebook, "you'll be a great mom," or "it's great to be a mom." and things like that, well it started to hit me, I'm going to be a real mom!!!!  wow that's pretty cool! 
I feel so blessed that Heavenly Father would bless me with one of his son or daughter!  Talk about an honor. 
I have felt so much better this week, like a new person!  I don't feel sick, smells hardly bother me anymore.  I have felt a new energy that I haven't had in weeks, about 10 actually!!  I started back working out every morning and I feel great!!  I still have an achy back and neck but I don't think that's anything new with my job!!  Last night I got some projects done instead of going straight to bed at 7!!  I made it to 9:30!!!  woot woot for me!! 
Then this morning, I notice I really have a little baby belly!!!  I love to hold it, I got excited I have a belly, the first time in my life, I'm excited to have a belly!!!  I just love it, I keep saying this is my baby in here!! I sometimes think I can feel something and I just say I love you too baby!!  
Marcus talks to the baby every night and morning!!  he keeps telling the baby to not come out if it's a girl!! haha he's only joking though cause he'll love a little girl too!! 
I realized I really really love this baby already and I haven't even seen him!!!  I don't want anything for Christmas except stuff for the baby!!  Such a weird feeling to always be thinking what's my baby doing today? can he hear me?  is he happy in my belly?  what will he be like? will he have any hair?  will he be chubby like me?
I can't wait to be a mom, I know I won't be prefect but I've been dreaming of this day for only 24 plus years!!!  I remember at 4 asking my mom if I can have my own baby!!!  This all my dreams coming true!  A great husband and a baby to make our family complete!! 

It's out!!!

Finally the news is out, I can't tell you how fun and exciting it is to tell everyone!!!  It feels more real now that I can talk about it and don't have to keep it quite!!!  I'm also so excited to hear how excited everyone is, that makes me so happy!!  Wow this is for REAL!!!! 

Happy Thanksgiving

         We had  a great Thanksgiving, I was having some stomach pain, that really worried me, I didn't want to go to the dr, and it be nothing but it got really bad Thursday night, I told myself if I'm not better by the morning I'm going in!  Well it was better by the morning, but I think I got a belly!!!  I feel like I have a little belly I can't suck in anymore!  haha but it's a hard stage cause you just look chubby not pregnant!! Oh well I think that will change soon!  I weighted in and I ginned 2 lbs as well so I think the baby had a growth sprit and that's that I felt!  Who knows!  so I'm getting fat and gaining weight, it's kind of real!
          So my other good news, I got my first maternity clothes!!  Mom actually got them on black Friday for me for Christmas, but I'm so excited, it just felt like buying airline tickets for your vacation, it's like I'm really doing this!  I got two tops and jeans and they are sooo cute!!  I can't believe I found cute jeans, I was really worried about it cause I'm just not a normal size and it's so hard to find good jeans, and I really love them! 

            That's our Thanksgiving news, I'm super happy though and excited to tell everyone next week, I think Monday I'll post our picture on Facebook!!!  It's so exciting, I hope everyone is exciting as I am!!! 
   

What's normal??

So pregnancy is kind of hard,  everyone is different and every baby is different.  I don't feel great, a killer head ache and stomach cramps, but is that just being pregnant?  Is something wrong, is my stress over something being wrong making it worse?  should I call the dr, will they think I'm stupid and everyone goes through this?  AHHHH!!?!?!!  I just want a healthy happy baby, but how do you know if what you're doing is right or wrong?  how do you know if what you feel is the same as EVERY OTHER pregnant lady.
I haven't gained weight yet and I'm almost 4 months pregnant in most cases I should be happy right? but I'm not I'm scared my baby isn't growing or something is wrong.....  I think this is just the start of Motherhood, always worrying, am I a good mom, is my baby happy?  I didn't think it started this early!!!  help me!!  I think I'm losing my mind!!! 
I don't want to go to the dr for two reason, one I don't want to hear something is wrong and two I don't want to hear nothing is wrong and I'm just a baby!!!  what to do. Be a man about it is all I can think of!!! haha

Our first family pictures!

    I'm getting so excited and ready to tell everyone, because I'm not sick and I don't feel pregnant...  I know and keep telling myself everything is okay, but it's so hard cause I haven't gained weight, I don't think I have a belly, I'm not sick, I wonder, am i really pregnant?? I want to tell everyone so it feels real again!!  haha  I have told all my brothers and sisters so that's fun, but I just want to post these pictures on facebook or something! haha I guess I am 13 weeks almost 14 so most people tell around now, so once I feel everyone that should know first knows then I'll just yell it from the roof tops!! :)
   I'm about 80% sure this baby is a girl!! Marcus really wants a boy but I think it's a girl!! haha I think I'll be more surprised if they say it's a boy then a girl, but we'll see I guess!!  December 21st will be the big day!!!  I'm so excited! 

 

Baby Room is in the works now!!!

THE FIRST ULTRA sound!!

Wow what a day!!  today was so busy, I had a WIC appointment and then took my grandma to the dentist went shopping with Anna, then I had the High light of my dad, we meet our baby!!!
So back up a little all last night I could sleep and I was almost sick to my stomach thinking about this appointment, I almost cried to think about the Dr. telling us there was no heart beat or there was something wrong.  I started to get so worked up I believed something was wrong more then everything was going to be great and he would be healthy and strong!  We got to the dr. and I shaking and my legs where shaking.  I was so nervous,  But there he was, with a strong heart and growing great, so good they said I was 11 weeks and not 10 so they moved my due date up to May 29th!!!  what??? crazy, May seems so much closer then June!!  Wow we have the ultrasound on the frig and I keep holding it and thinking this is my baby!!!  I can't believe it's real, it looks like a baby and it's more real!  still not really real, but getting there!!

The past few days I haven't thrown up once!!  I'm so happy, I think it's almost over!!  please be over, I want to workout and be normal for a little bit before I get big!!!  Next week I'm going to paint the baby's room!! woot woot!  I'm so excited, I know it's early but I have a week off work and I want to get organized as best as I can!!  we'll see!

Happy DRUGS!!!

So last week, Dr. Carlson, my chiropractor gave me some drops and vitamin for my morning sickness.  They make a world of a difference!!!  I'm not 100%  I still feel just kind of yucky and tired all the time, but when I take my drops I don't throw up and if I take the pills I don't feel so yuck.....
3 more weeks and I'll be through the first trimester so I hope that I feel a lot better, I'd like to go back to the gym and be able to stay up later with my husband, watching movies and going out! Now if I'm not in bed by 9 I feel really sick.

I got my elliptical from my parents, so I want to set that up in our house so I can do something in this cold cold weather!!

The word is getting out....

Last night for Halloween we told Toni, Jeff, and Holly, if was fun to tell, it makes it more real.  It's still not really real yet, but the whole way home, Marcus and I keep saying how crazy it is that we're having a baby!!!  a REAL BABY is in my tummy.  I don't think either of us planned on this but we're both super excited!!  I always think what he'll look like and act like.  I pray he'll be healthy and happy!!
We got some candy for the Bruce's with a note that said " Grandma and Grandpa, Happy Halloween, this is not Trick and hopefully a TREAT! Love JonJon"  It took Toni a moment but then looked at me and said, "Are you Pregnant?"  I laughed and said yes!!!  We talked and talked about being sick and the excitement, we'll have a baby next summer!!!  Next Halloween we'll have to dress our little baby up!!!!
I really want to be the parents that have a baby and it only adds to our life, not something that stops our life.  I'm happy to leave our baby for the weekend so we can still go to California surfing, or SLC and stay in a hotel, or whatever we want.  I want to take a baby to all Marcus' bike races and not be a lame mom that won't take my baby anywhere and say we can't do anything.  Now money will be tight but I think if we're smart we can make it work, and do special things here and there. 
One big worry for me, is Marcus, I want him to do what he wants and be truly happy.  My dream is and always has been is to have a baby and be a mom, so for me that is coming true.  Marcus wants to bike and go to medical school, I never want anything to get in the way of his dreams and goals.  I'll do anything to make those happen!!!  I know Marcus will love the baby too, but I know in the back of his head he's thinking oh man, if we have a baby, will I be able to bike?  That's why I'm so so excited for his birthday present this year!!! only 23 more days!! 
We plan to tell the rest of our family over Thanksgiving!!  I'm excited!