JaMarcus update 31and half weeks

So a lot has been going on with the pregnancy and kind of stressful for me,  I never wanted to be one of those girls that worry about everything and goes to the hospital 4 times before she actually has their baby, but now I can see it all happening!!
So we got back from Hawaii and I just wasn't feeling good, cramps/contractions, extra discharge (sorry if this is too much info)  and my back hurt, I had diarrhea, and just felt yucky.  Anyone other day I would just say I'm tired from travel and nothing really to worry about, but as a mom that loved her baby and really really want to see hi happy and healthy.  I just kept thinking is something wrong? is this normal?  well I put my feet up for a couple days and drank a lot of water. I started to feel better so wasn't too worried.
Sunday hit and I had a little experience in the middle of the night that really scared me again. so I got up Monday and had to go back to work after a bad night of sleep.  My job is great and I love it, but it is a very hard job on my body and even more so when I'm pregnant.  But I just didn't feel good all day, I felt weak and tired and really just yuck!!  I got super dizzy and light headed, I just felt like I was going to melt down to nothing.
I went to bed that night at 6pm and slept til 6 am.  Marcus is so good and helpful he made sure I ate and made me a pb sandwich, by request, cause it's my favorite lately!  I felt better Tuesday still tired but not like Monday.
Wed I had my doctor's apt and told him everything that had happened and he was a bit concerned so did a little exam, and I had progressed a little in the labor part and he wasn't too happy about that only being 31 weeks, so he wanted to do an ultrasound just to check everything.
Thursday we did the ultrasound and the main things that we where concerned about where fine, so that was great news.  He did say I'm at risk for a preterm baby, because, it's a first time baby and I work on my feet.  And the fact that I have already started having contractions and thinning.  We'll see though, I get nervous he'll be early but my gut feeling tells me everything is good and he'll be right on time!
Being pregnant and a soon to be mom is hard work!!  Moms's just have that motherly love, I know he isn't born yet but I love him and I picture him and day dream about him and what he'll be like.  I wonder if he'll be just like his dad!!  Today I haven't felt him move much, well not like he normally does, which they say is normal cause he doesn't have as much room to move, but I still worry is he okay? Even though my heart and gut til me everything is fine, I still worry!!  I'm not a  mom yet but being a mom I can already til is hard work!!!
We've been talking about a Grandma's love vs a Mother's love and I think I found a big difference, it's the worry, Grandma's worry about their safety I'm sure but not a daily fear if  I'm doing everything right and worried if everyone is happy, so that added stress and no sleep make is harder for a mom to enjoy the little simple moments. But a grandma just gets to enjoy them and love them and leave the stress of raising them up to the Parents!!
only 59 days til we  have a baby!!!  I just can't wait to hold him and SEE with my eyes that everything is okay!!  I can't wait to kiss him and tell him I love him!!!  I will probably never want to let go when they first let me hold him!!  I can't wait!!

hawaii

30 week update

okay so this picture I actually really like!! my last one I look fat but this one I feel pregnant in a cute I love my baby/belly kind of way!! 
I can't believe I'm 30 weeks!!  the first 15 weeks went soooo fast then 15 to 26 seemed to never end, now it's spending up a little! 
So I've been having a lot of cramping and crappy feeling days since we got home from Hawaii, not sure what that's all about but feeling a lot better now.  I hope it was just flying and maybe hydrated, but I was having contraction like or maybe even contractions, I was so tired and just achy all over.  I drank a lot of water, I mean 200 plus ozs a day!!!  and rested a lot put my feet up and did a lot of sewing. 
JaMarcus seems to really love to kick my ribs and sit really high, I have a hard time getting a good breath and it makes Marcus a little nervous cause I'll take a deep breath and he'll be like what's wrong? I just say I'm just trying to get a breath!!  I think I'll be growing out a lot more cause there is no more up and down room!!  NONE!!  Today I think his bum is pushing my rib, it hurts and I just feel I need to stretch out! 
JaMarcus still moves like crazy and I read somewhere I'm supposed to feel him at least 5 times an hour and so I was counting and about 10 minutes I felt him 5 times, I figure I feel him about every 2 or 3 minutes!!  crazy!!  but I love it, I can see my stomach move a lot and even Marcus can see it and laughs!!  On the airplane he went really crazy, I got a little nervous cause he was doing flips and moving so much I got a little sick!!  I really love this little guy!  
I'm not sure if this is common or not but since I hit 30 weeks I have lost my constant hungry feeling.  I even forget to eat sometimes, not even meaning to, like today it's 3 and haven't had lunch.... opps, I need to watch for that better.  I ate so much in Hawaii maybe I just stored up enough!! haha
Good news, no stretch marks so far!!  I do have acid reflex pretty bad, I love tums these days! 
I have worked a lot of getting things ready, lots of sewing and shopping, I have the week off work so trying to get a lot done because I know once I get back to work I just won't have time. 
Tomorrow is my shower and I can't wait!!!   Mainly just to talk to my friends and talk about babies!! as JaMarcus' room is getting closer to being ready I just get soooo excited to have him in our family!! I have a little emotional side when I think about holding him for the first time or bringing him home!  I just can't believe I'm going to be a mom in 9 weeks or so!!  Marcus thinks he's coming early and instead of being nervous I get really excited!! I just want him to come!!  I forgot I have a birthday before he comes and I'm more excited for him then my birthday!! 
So I have debated weather to say this or not, because nothing has been decided but I really like the name Jax and have kind of had that feeling that's what we'll name him.  I still don't know and Marcus hasn't really said yes or no yet but I really like it.... 

New step in the Hawaii temple

Today was a new day, today was the first time someone asked me if I was pregnant that didn't know me! It was funny cause I feel huge and super pregnant but I guess people are scared to ask cause on Monday we got the... Sooo, are you guys going have kids??? Like are you pregnant but don't really want to ask!! I almost get Offened because I'm Sooo huge! Hawaii is super fun but I just feel so huge in a swimsuit, oh well it's still fun!

Dentist

I had to go to the dentist today and not to work but to get worked on.....  man I have NEVER been soo numb in all my life! It wasn't all that bad except the fact I can't eat lunch cause I can't feel half my face still!  It was so funny cause little JaMarcus was moving and turning and just wasn't so sure what was going on.  It was kind of fun time though cause I had nothing to do or really think about so I just tried to picture him in my belly and he was doing flips and kept hitting his bum and head on me so I'd feel him rolling!!  I love it! I love these moments.   I just can't believe May is just around the corner!
Marcus and I got to babysit last night for a little girl in our ward and it was soo fun!!  it was so special because it was so real, I was making dinner and Marcus was studying/playing teaching her about her joints and quizzing her on her body parts.  Marcus kept asking me is this normal, to the things she'd do.  I just said yep!!  He is a great dad already and I can't wait to see what he's like with his little boy!  They just laughed together and he got her so wired up and just laughing it was such a party.  After she left we talked and he asked do you think that's what it'll be like everyday?  I said yeah give or take a little.  He seemed pleasantly happy.  She was a really smart girl and just loved to read books and count so it was fun and super easy.
The past couple days I'm just so excited to be a mom, I know there are hard days and times but I just feel this is my true calling in life!  I've dreamed for almost 27 years of being a wife and mother!
Yesterday I read a great article in the Ensign about parenting called "Helping without Hovering" I thought it was a great article.  I just got more excited about being a mom!  I have a lot to learn but I'm so ready for the new adventure!!
2 More days til our little spring break trip!!!  woot woot I'm sooo excited!

one of those days

so right now I'm so tired and want to go to bed but I'm so unconformable I can't....  My legs are achy, my neck hurts, my back aches, my belly feels like a thousand pounds, and I can't breathe very well.  I guess this is what most pregnant people complain about, well at least on all the web pages I've read.  This is the first day that I just feel uncomfortable being pregnant.  I've had aches and pains but this is different, this is just pregnancy!!  I took a bath and that always feels good but the water got cold and I had to get out and within an hour I ache again.  I'm ready for a our vacation, I'm ready for the beach.  I don't mean to complain because I still love my life and feel super super blessed, just want to document how I feel and this is the best way!!  well I better try again to sleep!  more pillows this time!!  oh by the way Marcus made dinner tonight and I couldn't have asked for a more prefect surprise I needed that today!!  I love him!! 
Oh real fast I had a crazy dream about going into labor and I couldn't find Marcus or get a hold of him and my sister had to take me to the hospital.  It was so funny Marcus' dad ran through all the classes up at USU yelling for him and couldn't find him I was freaking out!!  I'm sure it won't happen that way!!  just funny!! 

week 28

 

 wow  I can't believe I'm at 28 weeks!!  crazy how fast it goes at times!  ok so this picture I look huge!  haha  I just ate a ton before taking it!!  The newest thing here is JaMarcus is really kicking now well he always kicks but if I have the computer on my tummy you can see the whole computer move!!  it's a lot harder and I can see my belly move!! haha I really love him!  I can also feel him move more now, just not kicks but roll over or flip and it's like a roller coaster ride and your stomach gets that funny feeling, that's how I feel sometimes!  I like to think only 12 weeks that doesn't see far away at all, then I think wow anna had her baby at 35 weeks so that's only 7 weeks, I think I'll do the 12!!  :)  I have had a serious sweet tooth the past couple of weeks I need to get that under control!!  I went running yesterday and did a nice 3 mile jog and it was great!  I love runner, I can't wait to have this little guy in the jogger and off we go! 

  I had to drink this lovely drink before my dr apt to test my blood sugar levels and it wasn't fun, I didn't feel very good the rest of the day.  oh well!! 

funny day at the doctor!

Yesterday I had to do my diabetes testing, I had to skip my favorite meal of the day, Breakfast!! ok this is a little bit funny, but since I've been pregnant I love breakfast, I seriously (I know I'm crazy) get excited for breakfast when I'm going to bed and think, what will I have tomorrow??  Crazy I know!!  I wake up and get ready super fast so I can sit and enjoy my breakfast with Marcus!! I really love the with Marcus part! I get to wake him up and we read scriptures while I eat so maybe that's why I love it so much!!!  I do get a little sad when it's over!!
Today I was eating my shredded wheat, which I love, and Marcus was half awake half sleeping trying to get his eyes open enough to read the words and I just thought 3 more months and I'll probably be feeding our little guy instead of eating myself!!  haha I'm so excited for him to come and meet us!! he'll see how crazy we are and hopefully just laugh at his funny dad!!
okay so back to yesterday!!  I had my little testing which I was nervous for because I had to skip breakfast drink this orange sugar drink and give blood..... I just kept thinking I'm going to pass out without my breakfast!!  I did okay and the girl was really good actually and probably one of the best experiences giving blood, but I did rush home to eat a bowl of cereal at 11 o clock!!
The Dr, which I love, he is so great! he checked the baby's heart rate and it was so funny cause he checked on one side and JaMarcus just kicked him and we heard it so loud on his little machine.  Then moved it to the other side and he hit it again!! haha funny guy then we started to hear the heart beat and JaMarcus moved and we couldn't find the heart for a second again and kicked the dr about 5 times before he could get an accurate reading!  The dr said, "relax baby!"  then looked at me and was like. "I think you'll have your hands full with this one...."  I just laughed and he was like seriously does he always move this much?  I told him actually he moves more in the morning and dinner time.  He just laughed and said well I know why your belly hurts then, he said he has probably bruised my insides a little.  (nothing to worry about)   I just laughed cause I keep saying he moves a lot, but I didn't know what was normal!
I keep dreaming about the baby and it makes me sooo excited to hold him!!  My dreams are so real and I can feel his super soft skin and see his little fingers and I just can't wait to hold him for real!! Sometimes I look in the mirror and just think wow I'm really having a baby!! I just think wow this is for real!! I already have my own baby!!!  He's growing and kicking he knows Marcus and my voice he is our BABY!!!!  I love love him!!