days off work!!!

I had Thursday and Friday off work last week and it was so nice!! I got so much done!! I cleaned our house, shampooed all the carpet (even the stairs)! cleaned the bathrooms and just organized my life!!  I also got a lot of sewing done for the baby's room!!  I can't wait for this little guy!!  I think the more I feel ready for him, the more I get excited to hold him!!  I just really love that guy already!!  

We did a grey for our baby room and the more blue I put in there the walls look more blue but oh well I guess! I love it! we have so much stuff in his room I hope we have room for him!! haha  Marcus might just have to find a new spot for his bike and fish tank!  

23 weeks

This morning I woke up and felt my stomach it felt so tight!  Wow I feel in the past couple weeks my belly has really grown!  It's so crazy!  I'm wearing half and half, maternity and normal clothes, but I think at this rate a couple more weeks and I might not have a choice!! I feel little JaMarcus move all the time now, he is so funny! Marcus felt him move last night and I think he thought that was really cool!!
I have been feeling really good lately not too many aches and pains.  I love being pregnant right now!!  I'm really glad we got pregnant went we did because it was between the Lord and Marcus and I.  Now so many of my friends are having babies I think I would want to have one because they where and not for the right reasons so I'm happy we did it on our time table!  This baby has already brought so much joy to my life!!
Saturday Marcus had to work so I went to DI and just walked around and found a gliding rocking chair it was in pretty good shape, we have a rocking chair in the baby's room but I was thinking it might be good to have one down stairs or in our room also so for 10 dollars I got it!  I think I'll just recover it and it'll be good as new!!  I'm excited!  I can't wait to really get things put together and organized!!  Right now it'll all just tossed in his room!!  it'll come!!

So grateful!

So I've always been so grateful to be pregnant and to have this baby, but  today I just felt so blessed we started trying to have a baby a little early in fear that it might take a long time or the not even have kids at all. One of my greatest fears in life is that I wouldn't be able to have my own baby.  I know we could adopt or now a days there are a lot of things to do, but I really just wanted to be be able to have kids with out problems.  Today I just kept thinking this is it, this is all my dreams, a prince as my husband that I would do anything for because I love him so much and he loves me, and we're having a baby!!  My pregnancy has been by the book, I couldn't ask for anything more!!  I feel him move all the time, I love to talk to him and feel him move.  At first I was a little shocked to have a baby so fast but now as we get closer and closer I just feel this is Heavenly Father's Plan I'm so happy and my life couldn't be any better.  I feel so blessed and I feel so close to my Heavenly Father, I can't wait to hold my baby and read the Book of Mormon to him and listen to General Conference together.  I can't wait to go for walks and spend my days with my family.
We got our stroller last night all put together and I couldn't be more excited!!  I just start to think about life with my baby and I get sooo excited, I'm such it's just like anything, hard days and long nights with no sleep but I also know the Joy I feel is worth it all!!
Marcus is doing well in school, and works really hard to get good grades for our future. I'm so proud of him he is such a great husband!  We went to the Gym last night and he was in a different part of the gym while I jogged and when he walked in and I saw him I just light up. He makes me so happy and makes me excited for our life together!!  
We think we have a summer job for Marcus all lined up so that helps me not feel so stressed and worried about the future, I really have felt a peace the past couple days knowing things will work out!! Money is always so stressful for me, I worry a lot about everything but it always seems to work out just right!!   I know Heavenly Father wants us to have this baby so I know he'll help us financially figure it out!
18 weeks to go!!  woot woot!!!

Feeling good

We have had so much fun on our three day weekend. I really love just hanging out And laughing with family and friends! We had some friends to dinner which was fun! Our big news is we got our carseat!! It comes with a jogger stroller which I'm super excited about! I can't wait to get outside running again! So all three days of not working I felt great not sore or super tired it's so great! But then today I went back to work and I'm so sore tired and just ache all over. I plan to work til the end but after today I get nervous if my body will keep up.... I don't think the baby is all that different but my job is just hard on my body and the combination of baby and job is a lot! I'm ready for a hot bath! I'm just so excited for the baby to come!!!! Is it May yet???

22 weeks

Time is a funny thing!!  I feel like I'm going to have to wait a life time to meet this baby, but I think about my cute little nephew and how in 4 weeks he's so big and changing so much!!  I'm sure if I could watch this baby through a looking glass I wouldn't be able to believe the growing he's doing!!  I know he is growing and developing a lot I just don't see it!
This week I went from I think I feel him to wow he's moving and kicking a lot now!!!  I can't believe how much I love to feel him it's something you can't imagine til you feel your own baby move in your belly!!  I find I wake up in the morning with my hand on my belly a lot, I think I just naturally love to be close to him.
I'm gaining weight fast now and it scares me,  I know it's normal but the number are bigger then I've ever seen and it's scary to me!!  I just keep telling myself it's for a healthy happy baby!!
This past week I had a dream about our little guy!! he was sooo cute, born on a Thursday at 8 pm and we brought him home the next day!! So he was healthy!!  He had little blonde peach fuzz for hair and loved loved his dad,  in my dream Marcus just kept telling me to go rest and he'd hold the baby, he just wanted him all to himself!! It was super cute!!
I'm so excited to hold JaMarcus!!!  I can't wait to smell him!!  love love it!!!  18 more weeks!!!  crazy crazy!!

21 weeks

This week I saw a big change!!  Everyone keeps saying one day you'll wake up and feel a lot bigger and the past 2 days I have felt that!! Sunday night I had a really really bad cramp like feeling on my right lower side, it was so bad we wondered if something was really wrong and if we should go to the dr, but being Sunday it was wait it out or the ER.  I decided to take a warm bath and take some Tylenol, it sure took the pain level down a lot!!  I think it helps too that my husband is so great and funny, laughter takes the pain away too!! I love him!!  I woke up Monday morning and feeling a lot better but still achy but I felt my tummy bigger and I felt little JaMarcus moving!!  so I knew everything was okay.  Tuesday I woke up and my belly was huge!!  well not huge but a lot lot bigger!!  If I wear tighter clothes I think people might think I'm pregnant!!  woot woot it's for real!!  I love love feeling him move!!  What an amazing thing, I felt my bond with him grow so much feeling him move and knowing he's my little baby!!  WOW I really love him!!

THE BLESSING DAY!! Troy Bryan Swan

 Troy got a new blessing outfit but it was a little big so I sewed it up a little and hopefully it fits!!

 Marcus and I with cute little Troy, well he'll little but wow he's growing sooo fast!!  he is getting such a fun cute personality, I love to be with him!! I love love little babies but I really love the new noises and smiles they make, starting to talk to you and recognize your voice!!
I am sooo excited for our little guy!  It's getting closer every day and I can start to imagine what he'll be like.  I know he'll love his dad more then me though, I'm sure his first laugh will be at his crazy dad!!  HE's so funny how could you not laugh!  They'll be best buds!  I'm excited to be the mom though, there is something about a mom's love that no dad can replace.  Marcus may be the crazy fun one but I will love those kids to death!! 

 Isn't he soo cute!!  I just love his big eyes and sweet looks he is so perfect!!  His little outfit didn't last long a little diaper explosion, oh well!!

He really loves his mom he looks right at her and he just has that love look on his face!!  I can see a lot of Anna in him so cute!!

20 weeks

20 weeks I can't believe this is only the half way!! looking back it's gone fast I guess but to think I still have 20 weeks seems like forever.  I just want to meet our baby!!!  I guess we still have a lot to do so it's good!! All in good time!!  It's just super crazy to think some people go into labor at 24, 26, and 28 weeks!!!  I'm not that ready! 
So I'm getting big and starting to not enjoy the restless nights, but I'm super happy to be pregnant and love my baby sooo much already!  I can start to really feel the baby move and I love it!  I love knowing he's really there and I'm not just FAT!  I'm still in my normal clothes! 
My new favorite treat is apples and peanut butter which I've always loved but it's soo super good now!! 
Went to the dr this week and heard his little heart beat about 145 to 150 beats per minute.  The dr said he's doing good and growing.  He said to plan on a June baby and not get disappointed if he's past my due date.  I think june 2, 2012 is when he's coming.  that's four days after my due date but that's my guess!!  

The Bruce family Top 11 of 2011

The Bruce family Top 11 of 2011

January - Marcus Proposed to me!

March- sealed in the Logan temple (best day of my life!!)
 

April- I ran SLC Marathon

May- We Cruised to Mexico for our honeymoon

July- We ran a half Marathon Together (Marcus' first and probably LAST)

July-  Went on a family camping trip to Yellowstone

August- Tour or Utah bike race and a lot of bike races for Marcus, he's my hero!

September- Marcus biked 206 miles from Logan to Jackson, WY. Talk about CRAZY!!! 11 hours on a bike.....

October- Found out we're having a BABY!!

October- California weekend Surf trip
 

December- It's a BOY!!!

 WOW what a great year!!!  This year was a big year for us but I'm sure 2012 will be a big year going from 2 to 3 in our family!!!  Can't wait to meet our little baby BOY!!!

New Year GOALS

This year I have set a lot of goals for myself, my two main goals is get better at Photography and become a better person/soon to be mom.  so to get better at Photography I have committed myself to take at least one picture a day for the next year.....  a little hard maybe but I'm going to do it!!  I also want to work on Photoshop with some of these pictures to improve my photo-shop skills.  Now this goal doesn't make me a better person or so you may think, but the thing is I LOVE TO TAKE PICTURES, I truly do love it,  but I get down on myself a lot because I'm not as good as the thousands of amazing photographers out there so I think over all I'll do something I love and feel better about myself because hopefully after 366 days I'll see some improvement in my photos!!
Okay so main goal two, become a better person and soon to be mom.  I have thought a lot about this goal and prayed a lot.  I have dreamed a lot about this baby and I know it's a gift from our Heavenly Father, I want to be the best mom I CAN BE.  So I have thought of course every mom wants their kids to be good smart kids, well I have a STRONG testimony in the Book of Mormon and know with all my heart it's true so I have committed to start now and read EVERYDAY to my baby for a couple of reasons, one I want my testimony and knowledge to grow of this great book, I know I'll be guided on how to be a better mom and wife.  I know by reading now to my baby he'll learn and be smart. I have also talked to a lot of new moms and I hear it's really hard to find/make time for yourself.  I want this to be a strong habit and I want my baby boy and I to have a special time where we can bond and feel the spirit together.  I also hear all the time from my great school teacher mom, how important it is to read daily to your kids and why not read the most powerful greatest book on earth!! 
I of course set about 10 other goals but this is the most important ones to me!!  So for my picture for Day #1 I chose my other goal, The Book of Mormon.  I will post it here but plan to post the other 365 pictures on my photo blog.