Boise in July

 Boise round two!  This summer our family Vacations have been to Boise to see Josh, Liz, and their family! Each time we go its s fun new trip!  we had a great time yet again!  We took a trip on Friday to Their land, they have a lake and land and we played in the water and had a great time! Cavin just loves the water!  he had no fear and wanted to get in all by himself!  (dad and mom helped though!)  We went swimming and on a boat ride, dad and Cavin did some fishing.  It was great day!

 Cavin had cherries for the first time and apparently loved them!

 Liz and Levi going on the 4 wheelers! 

 swimming on the dock was fun!  Marcus, Carrie, and Allison spent a good amount of time doing tricks and dives off the dock!  they are fun to watch!

Cavin doing what he does best, EATING!  This little boy is either running or eating, and sometimes both!

 We all got home that night and crashed! it was a long day in the sun and water!  But so much fun!

Saturday started off with 6 of us girls going for a 20 mile bike ride!  (Mom, Liz, Carrie, Allison, Cindy, and me) we did the Goldilocks bike ride, it was a great day and prefect weather!
Then we went home and crashed again!
Then Marcus had his bike race, he wasn't feeling good that afternoon so wasn't sure if he should race but really wanted to so hoped it'd pass and be able to race,  well things didn't go his way he didn't pretty good for the first 15 minutes then he was out, he couldn't finish.  Marcus got quite sick the rest of the trip which was a total bummer!
That night he was well enough to go to the pro's race which was fun and so super fast!  Marcus knew a couple guys in the race so that was fun.
We drove home late that night and saw some fireworks on the drive home so pulled over and watched some great fireworks, probably the best I saw all year!  Then we drove home late late and again crashed into bed!
Marcus was sick all night so he slept as much as he could that morning, so we just hung out and then packed up and drove home.  It was a great trip with lots of fun and good memories!   

 Actually on our way to Boise we stopped at Shoshoni falls in Twin Falls, I had never been so I wanted to check it out and it was worth the hour stop! I love waterfalls and I think Cavin and Marcus had a good time too!

Cruise in 2013

 Cavin doesn't sit still love, but he really liked watching the cars!  He was so tired and so just sat with his dad and watched the cars go by! 

 This was probably the Bruce family Favorite!  we love VW! I kept telling Marcus we need to put his bug in the cruise in!  he didn't think it was quite nice enough! 

 Cavin so cute, clapping for the cars go by!  I love his boy and love to see him learning and growing so much!

 This was differently the most wanted car!!  Marcus always talks about Ferraris and how he would love one, I bring him back to real life and tell him dream on!! 

Marcus and Cavin watching the cool cars drive by! I love these boys!  so cute!  So proud of Marcus and the great role he has stepped up into as a great dad and husband!

13 month old Cavin

 Cavin and I love to go for walks everyday, and we found this new spot that we really love, we love to watch the duck!  I brought my camera the other day and got some pictures of my sweet boy! he is getting so big i can't believe it! Nothing is better then being a mom, I love feeling so special, Cavin makes me feel special he loves me and reaches for me, and nothing is better! 
I know he'll be a great big brother!  He has so much love to give and his little sister is going to be so lucky to have him! 

Special day!

Last night I was sewing and all of sudden got really sick, I could handle walk to bed, I threw up a couple times on the way and asked Marcus to get me a bowl just in case it kept going because I wasn't feeling better....  I had Marcus give me a blessing and it came on so fast and I felt horrible I mean it was so bad.  I prayed to just fall asleep so I wouldn't feel yucky anymore.
I did go for a long walk and it was really hot, then mowed the Lawn so not sure if I just over did it being pregnant or what.  I finally did fall asleep, Marcus is such a great husband he wasn't tired because it was still kind of early so just rubbed and scratched my back and turned on my favorite fan!
This Morning I woke up and felt a lot better but something felt weird my stomach and acting funny, well I put my hand on my tummy and felt the BABY!! She was moving!  it wasn't the butterflies moving that I felt before it was full baby moving!  She was kicking and adjusting!  I would push on one side and she would move to the other.  THIS is the VERY BEST part of being  pregnant!  I LOVE being a mom and at that moment my love for her went from a baby love to a mom I love you with all my heart love!  I'm 18 weeks pregnant and a couple days.  Just another week and a half and we'll know for sure what our baby is girl or boy, but I'm so sure it's a girl I have already got some hair bows!! haha I figure if it's a boy I can keep them or gift them!
Things in the Bruce family are so good!  Marcus is hearing back from medical schools and filling out secondary applications, we are so excited and happy for the next big adventures in our life!!

Summer fun and news

Marcus took the mcat and we haven't receive a score back yet, but I know he did great! He is my hero and I'm so proud of all his hard work and dedication. It hasn't been an easy year for him or our family, mainly cause we miss him so much! We made it and I know it'll all be worth it in the end! No matter where we go or what we do as long as I have my boys ill be happy! I know that sounds cheesy but totally true!
Marcus is working at the lab and loving it! He is training and riding his bike a lot! He has big plans of racing a lot and even riding in lotoja again!! His applications are in and now the waiting game has began! He has done all he can now we just turn it over to our father in heaven to guide us where we need to go!!
Cavin has his first birthday which was so fun and we can't get over that our little baby is already a year old! Where does time go? He is really turning into a new kid he is getting a personality that I just love, he gets so excited for everything! He loves to play alone and he loves other kids and people. With adults he likes them if mom or dad are close but he'll just follow kids and leave us in the dust!
He is still super high energy and go go go but it's so fun! This summer has already been a blast because he loves to be outside the sand box, the pool, walks, exploring, and all the dirt from the flower pots! He likes to eat dirt and rocks... ;) Cavin still makes me a little crazy when it comes to church, he is so tired and just wants to explore and run around!
I'm finishing up my foot zone class and training I love it and have learned so many skills for me, my family, and hopefully those I work with! I have done some paid zones and learning so much the more I do them! I have been studying and doing a lot of research on fertility and post paraduim, I don't want to limit my work but really feel a love for this that I would love to help and serve even one person! The greatest gift I've been given is the opportunity of being a mom, I would love to help someone have that gift!
I'm still into photography and sewing but really working on spending my time being the worlds beat mom! I want Cavin and our other kids to always remember me with playing on the floor or taking them to the park, being the mom they deserve and to always know they are loved!!!
Big news in our family baby number two is on the way!! This was a big surprise for us but totally excited and ready for the next adventure of loving not one but two amazing great crazy kids!!!! I'm due thanksgiving day!! Haha, it's bad but I already want this one early so I  can still enjoy thanksgiving and not be in the hospital!! Oh we'll ill take him when he comes!! This pregnancy has been a huge difference from Cavin, I was sick and super exhausted for two weeks then nothing!! I did some things I learned in my zoning class and haven't had any problems since!! What a huge blessing!!! I am 16 weeks  along and already getting a belly... I'm not super happy about that but at least I know baby is growing and doing well!! We have our first apt with dr kirkman on Monday and I'm so excited to see this baby on ultra sound!! Hear the sweat sound of the beating heart!! Music to my ears!
That's our family! News update!

The unknown

So I've wanted to write for a long time but just haven't and now I'm making time because I want to remember this experience.
I'm pregnant with baby number two!  we found out March 20th and to be totally honest, I cried, this was not planned and I felt totally overwhelmed and scared to have two 18 months apart!  I was scared to tell Marcus, I was scared to tell anyone in our ward in fear they'd just judge me.  Cavin is a great baby but he keeps my hands full and he can be a little wild child.  He doesn't have much chil relax in him it's go go go always and I just thought oh boy!!  He wasn't sleeping well at all at night when we found out so I was just a mess in tears.  Finally Marcus could tell something was up and I couldn't say the words I just cried.  He figured it out and was shocked as well, which made it worse because he didn't seem excited at all.  Well the days went on and I started to get real sick and tired so I wanted to cry even more, I just kept thinking I didn't sign up for this, I didn't try to get pregnant, but I am and I feel horrible.....
I went to my foot zoner teacher out of total fear and said I need help!  She told me somethings to do for the morning sickness, so I took a ton of B12 and sucked on pregnancy pops, it seemed to help with the nausea and over all yucky feelings, but the best part of the visit was helping me except this pregnancy, it really was more of a fear of the morning sickness and what others would think of me,  I hate feeling like people are talking behind my back and I knew they would having babies so close that's just the way our ward is, sad to say.
After I left I got that feeling from our Heavenly Father that I truly needed telling me, "Jessica this is my plan, and I know what's best."  That was all I needed to know, I know I'm a great mom and I know I want a big family, I know I'll love this baby just as much as I love Cavin and it'll be an amazing experience, the babies close together wasn't my real fear it was the pregnancy and feeling yucky again.  I know Cavin will love being a big brother and do a great job at it!  I know Marcus will be am amazing father and husband and help and support our family.  I know I will be a great mom and love two just as much.  I know I'll be able to handle two kids, it won't always be easy, but I know Heavenly Father wouldn't give me this huge blessing if I couldn't handle it!
At about 8 weeks and a couple days I was feeling horrible, I couldn't handle move and really didn't have the energy to do anything.  I called Marcus and asked him to come home as soon as he could to help with Cavin.  He came home early which I felt bad about but really needed him.  the next couple days I felt really crampy but fine besides that.  the past 2 weeks I haven't felt anything.  I haven't felt pregnant at all no morning sickness not really tired like I was, smells didn't bother me like before.  this is really scary to me because I was so sick and yucky feeling then nothing. With Cavin I was sick for months  not just 2 weeks.  Maybe everything is okay and fine but I just don't really feel it is,  It is too early to feel the baby move it is too early to really be putting on weight (knowing the baby is growing)  I'm not sick knowing the baby is growing, so I just feel like there is no sign he's okay, and maybe that's not a sign at all my I'm scared everything is not okay. I called the Dr to get in today because my first apt isn't for 3 more weeks, we wanted to wait til after Marcus took the Mcat, but I can't wait, I need to know, either way, things are fine or not, I just have to know.  so I go in, this afternoon and I can't stop thinking what the dr will say, I keep getting scared to hear the words I don't want to hear, there's no heart beat, but I'm almost expecting that more then everything is fine.  I can't tell if it's just a over worried mom or if it's my gut telling me something wrong. 
I don't know what a mis-carriage really feels like but I'm starting to really have all the emotions that come with it.  I know we can get pregnant again I know everything will be fine, but I'm sad to think I could have lost this baby, just when I got so excited for him to be in our family.
I wait this baby to know I love it, no matter if I don't get to hold you in this life, I will in the next life, I will always be it's mom and that love is strong and true.  I know no matter what I'll get to hold my baby and love it.

Big big news.....

This thanksgiving Cavin will be a big brother!! We are so excited and so blessed! I'm 20 weeks pregnant and just found out what we're having!! I have wanted to wait to tell everyone so I had time to sink my head in this!! We knew we wanted to have a baby before we moved to medical school but thought wed have a 2014 baby not 2013 baby!! We just say the word baby and I'm pregnant, it's a huge blessing but hard at times. I defiantly have felt scared, overwhelmed, and super under-qualified! I have found so much peace knowing even though I don't know if I can do it, Heavenly Father knows I can or he wouldn't give me this sweet spirit!!!
This pregnancy has been 100% different from Cavin and when I got my ultra sound today the baby was completely curled up in a ball!! Cavin never did that! He was always kicking and spread out. So hopefully this one will be my cuddly sweet quiet baby!!! Haha we can dream right!
We had a hard time telling the gender because the legs where crossed and both hands covered its face!!
I have so much excitement this is the first time it's felt real and I felt that over powering love for this baby!! I'm going to surprise everyone today when Cavin wakes up from his nap and Marcus gets off work.

Family pictures

I forgot to post these so wanted to share them!  I love them I think they turned out great!  Thanks Bethany for taking them!