36 weeks

I can't believe how time is going by, I'm getting more and more anxious to have this baby!!  I have tons of cute clothes but no baby to put them on!!!  something is wrong with this!! His room is ready, I'm ready, but still no baby.....  I'm starting to feel really yucky, so makes me more ready to have him in my arms!!  I feel like I'm going to throw up all day and all night.  I don't want to complain cause I do love being pregnant I do love that he is growing big and strong.  I am excited to go out running again, I'm excited to take naps and hold my little guy!!  I really want him to come soon cause I want a little baby!! I'm scared to have a 9 lb baby!  or worse 10 or more! I just feel him growing so much these days.
My hips are really stretching our which is good to give him more room to come out but man it really aches!  Saturday night I was feeling really bad and cramps and fever so I took a bath and laid in bed but didn't get much better til about 2 am then finally got some sleep.  Sunday I was okay but not great, just kind of yucky still and church was hot so I was uncomfortable and just wished I could go into labor and get it over with!!!
Monday the throw-up happened and I didn't feel better after I felt worse.  I feel better now but still can't wait to have my strong healthy 25 lb less body back!!  I know having a new born is hard I get it but I would rather have a newborn and be tired then feel like this much longer!!!
This week is Finals for Marcus and then my birthday so I hope to wait til next week but I'll take him if he wanted to come!!!  I just can't wait to hold him in my arms!!  kiss him and love him!!!  28 days to go!!!  woot woot!!  

35 weeks

35 weeks, can you believe it!!  I can't believe it, the closer and closer we get the more I just can't believe I'm really going to be a mom and have a baby!  I think I've been able to say yeah we're having a baby, but now it's a real thing, I'm going to have a baby, a little boy, a guy I can hold and I'm in charge of for the rest of my life!!  I've babysat a lot and been told feed him at this time, or sleep at this time, but now it's me, I'm the one to know his schedule and what he needs and wants!!  It's just really hitting me, I'm sooo excited but also a little nervous to have a baby.  Not that I don't think I can do, but just that wow feeling, of my whole life is about to change.  

I've been feeling pretty good, just feeling big and achy.  My hips must be moving cause they kind of achy.  The past two nights, I just feel sick, I feel like I  have the flu, cause I get achy and feel like I might throw up.  I think It's just how it goes.  After work and a long day, he seems lower and like he might fall out!!! Then in the morning I feel good and normal again!  

I just keep thinking he's only a couple more weeks away!  I'm excited to see the Dr. tomorrow, I love just hearing everything is good and his little heartbeat.  I would love for the Dr. to say any day now but I'm sure we still have a few weeks.  I can make it!  I keep telling myself I'm strong and healthy and my body is made to have this baby!!  I can do it!  

good days and hard times

So a little personal, but the last few days, I've been a little overwhelmed or stressed maybe about money and jobs.  I know this baby is what Heavenly Father has in his plan for us, and I love that plan, it fits my life and plans too!!  But in the real world I worry about money like everyone else!  I guess I don't have perfect faith everything will turn out.   I think 85% faith and 15%  I worry as summer gets closer, as baby comes closer and no summer job comes closer I get a little worried.  I wish I had prefect faith, because it DOES ALWAYS work out!!! 
Yesterday, we got a call that we've been waiting for, for a few weeks!  Marcus and I got a cleaning job!!!  It won't cover everything we need but sure will do a lot for us!!  This is seriously a huge answer to our prayers!!  It will be a night job for a couple hours a night, something we can do with a baby with us or we can drop him at either of his grandmas'!!  (which I'm sure they'd love!) 
After we got the call that we got the job, I oh course stopped and thanked my Heavenly Father for this huge blessing but I did get that feeling of "see you can trust me, I have am here for you."  My Heavenly Father has never NEVER left me, he has never disappointed me.  It's the world that is disappointing and hard.
Yesterday I Wasn't feeling good, so I went to my Favorite sister's house and just sat around talking and playing with my super cute nephew, it was just what my baby/body ordered.  I don't know why but I was sooo tired and just needed some rest.   I'm so blessed to have a great family and support system on both sides! 
I was feeling better by the night time and went to a movie, It was soooo sad, I just kept thinking how much I love Marcus and never want to live a day with out him!!  I don't know what I would do, he is my everything, I couldn't have made it through this pregnancy without him, okay maybe I could if I had to, but soooo glad I didn't have to!
I got the baby's room cleaned more, and carpets shampooed!!  I feel like that room is ready for a baby!!  I woke up this morning and my huge belly just looked sooo big, I was looked at it, and little JaMarcus was going crazy, I want to say he was knocking to ask to get out! I said sure you can come out if you want to!!  :) I can't believe we only have 38 days left!!!  I hope it's no more then 38 days too!!!  I'm back to a light work out every day so I feel a lot better!!  I'm doing a lot of stretching too!!  I hear it helps in labor!  We'll see!!
Thank you for all the love and support!!!   

34 Weeks

HAPPY 34 weeks!!  Wow time is just going by fast! I can't believe I only have 6 weeks left.  Sometimes I get a little sad to think of not being pregnant, but then I'm also so excited to be done and have a baby in my arms and love him and kiss him non-stop!
The past two weeks have gone well, I have felt really good and really just enjoying my moving JaMarcus!  I have taken a few warm baths and that always keeps me moving and feeling pretty good!  I realized though I can't see my belly below my belly button, kind of weird!!  I have gained all the weight I wanted to my whole pregnancy so a little too much since I have 6 weeks left...  opps....  Hawaii didn't help!  I haven't been able to work out,  the dr told me not to starting at 31 weeks so just feel kind of yucky that way. I think at 36 weeks I'll work out a little more, since that's a pretty much full term baby and will be healthy at that point to come! So I have gained 25 lbs already.  Wow it's so scary to see that on the scale.  I just keep telling myself it's for a great cause and I'll just spend more time outside walking and getting back that much harder.  In May alone I plan to lose 10 lbs right off the back!!
I do feel huge every morning I feel bigger and bigger, and I just keep thinking I'm going to get soo big if I'm growing everyday!
We can't wait to meet him though!! No sure names yet!  I dream a lot about him though and he's soo cute!
I CAN'T wait to hold him I love him!!  6 weeks!!  woot woot!

Our Spring update!

 Well We ended March with our FIRST Anniversary!! It was a special day!  Marcus decorated our room and got treats! it was so much fun to talk about our first year together,  we have had so much fun this year, so many great memories and being Marriage to Marcus truly has only got better and better!! 

 As the Weather has gotten better we sure have enjoyed being outside!!  Marcus loves to go out on his bike!  He wanted to try out Jon's pogo stick!  it was so funny!

I started some seeds inside and as they have gone I moved them to bigger pots!! They are inside most the time as they are still young and it still gets chilly but I'm soo excited to see how they grow!  Hopefully we'll get lots of veggies this summer!!  I can't wait! 

 

 The other day we went to DI and it's not Marcus' favorite place to go but he was being a great husband and went with me and he found this toy that he loved growing up and thought our son needs it so we got it!!  It totally made his day!!  I love it!!  I love Marcus and how excited he gets over everything!!  He makes me so happy and just smile all the time!

Happy Easter!!!  we had a fun uneventful easter but it was so fun to be together,  Marcus had to work a lot this weekend but we're so grateful with the baby coming it's great to save up all we can!! we had Easter dinner at my families, which was fun to see the kids and be with them!  My mom always makes a great meal and I just love being with family!! 

  this is how the last few weeks have been for us!! we're happy and so excited to meet our little guy!!  only weeks away now!! 

A little scared

I have been so happy and excited the past few days, I can't believe in less then 50 days we could have  a baby!!  I could have my first son!!  I can't believe I'm weeks from being a mom!!  I just look at my belly and think, he's coming out of there soon!!!  It's getting so big, I know he's getting tight in there!
Last night, we went to visit a friend at the hospital who just had her baby boy!  He was sooo cute and sweet!  He was 7 and half lbs so just a good size, but still sooo tiny!  I just held this one day old baby thinking, I'm going to have my very own soon!!!  I seriously just wanted to jump up and down shouting with joy!!  I just want to see him sooo bad, I want to count his little toes and kiss his soft cheeks!
As we talked a little I could tell the mom was so sore and extremely exhausted, I left the hospital with mixed feelings, totally excited but also a little scared, how will my labor go, what does it feel like?  how long will it be?  will everything go smooth or will there be complications? Will I be able to walk the next day or so sore, I just lay in bed??  Then after we bring him home?? that's a whole other set of questions!  I know people keep saying everything will be great, but they don't know anything more then I do!!  Yes my mom had pretty smooth deliveries but that doesn't mean I will!
I read a great quote though that said, Heavenly Father made our bodies to have babies, so we really are superwomen!  I really think and feel everything will be okay and work out, but I think it's normal to have a little fear of the un-known! I keep telling myself it'll all be worth it to hold my baby in my arms!!
I'm so excited, I keep trying to think when he'll come and how it'll all happen!!??  in the night? at work?  at home? when will I start having contractions?  will I know this is the real deal when it starts?  Will I be one of the moms who is sent home  3 times before the real event??
We have our first birthing class tomorrow!! I'm pretty excited! we'll see if I learn something new!!  

the miracle of a baby

Lately I've been thinking,  and it's true pregnancy is harder then I thought and I totally respect and admire all those mom's out there who have not only had a baby but 2 or 3 or like my mom 7!!!  I don't know why, maybe I just always dreamed of having kids and being pregnant but I just thought you get a belly but nothing else changed.
There are days that I just don't want to be pregnant anymore but then there are days like today, when I just think, I have this cute baby inside me!  I just love him.  I can't describe it, but he is already a piece of my life that no one or any thing can replace.  I love when he moves and there are times I think what is he doing, cause I've never felt that before.  I love that lately I can tell he is getting bigger, I tell he is losing his room in there.  I talk to my belly, I know a little weird but like I said he's my baby, I already feel a connection with him, that I can't put into words.  It's truly a Miracle that my body is just housing this little guy!!  He's just becoming someone in my belly. He's not just a thing, he's my baby!!  He has hands and feet, he'll be smart and loving.  He's make us crazy someday, but he'll also bring us the greatest joy and I know we'll be so proud of him.  I know he'll look up to his dad like I do.  I know he'll cry for his dad when he leaves, like I want to sometimes, because we love him so much!
So even though pregnancy isn't as EASY as I thought it'd be and I get mad at my body for not handling it better.  It's also the greatest miracle and blessing I could have ever asked for.  A mother's love is different, I'm not even a mom really yet, but I worry about him and I worry I'm doing everything right so he'll be okay and healthy.  I worry if I do too much he'll come too early.  I worry if I don't feel him move, all because I love him sooo much I would do anything for him!
It's just like Marcus, I love him so much I would do anything for him for him to be happy.  I'll even name our baby Wee baby Seamus if that's what he really wanted because I just love him sooo much!!  he is my rock with I'm just feeling lost. 
I love you baby!! I love you Marcus!!! two people I couldn't live without!! 
I love my belly cause it's my baby!!!

week 32!

Not sure I love this picture, maybe I'll redo it!  But wow this week has been kind of crazy!  I'm feeling better today but Sunday to Tuesday night weren't great!  I just felt like I was going to explode and I think the baby was just growing and put a lot of pressure on my belly, back, and hips.  I took a long warm bath last night and that seemed to make a world of difference!!!  I feel a thousand times better today!!  I just keep thinking on man he's only about 3 and half lbs now what will it be like when he's 8 lbs..... help me!!  I just don't know where else he'll go!!! my ribs have been stretched out and I feel him low too!  I guess it's time he curls up in a tight ball!!! haha
No I love being pregnant, I love him sooo much!!  I will not lie, it's a lot of work on my body and wish I could just go out for a run, but the dr said not anymore. I might have to go swimming tonight.  Last night Marcus got to feel his little hiccups! Kind of cute!  I just really love love this little guy!  I have dreams about him all the time!! I have decided he's not coming early cause in all my dreams he's really chubby!!  :)
So I have hit my mission weight.... yuck that's really bad!!  but I guess glad I was able to lose some weight before I got pregnant!  My belly button is half in half out!  no stretch marks to my knowledge.  Thank heavens.


I feel like our nursery is about done!  I have people keep telling me if I'm ready he'll probably come late cause I'm ready for him!! haha probably true!  I have done a lot of sewing and I love feeling like I made a lot of the things in his room!  Here are a couple pictures, I made two covers for the boppy and all his bedding,  also 2 covers for his changing pad, one bike one and one to match his quilt.  

moving baby

okay so kind of embarrassing to see my huge belly and I never thought I'd post something like this, but it's soo funny to see him move!  I think he loves conference just like his mom!! we really really miss dad today so many this is why he was moving a lot!!  So don't think about my big belly just the cute baby moving inside!!!

(it's easier to see if you keep it small)

BABY SHOWER!!

   My Sister, Anna, and mom threw me and JaMarcus a great shower!  it was so special and such an amazing feeling for me.  I saw my friends and great family coming together to support Marcus and I!  We saw so much love to us and to our sweet baby boy!  I seriously just wanted to cry because so many people come to support us.
  Back in October when we first found out we're having a baby, our first thoughts where all so excited and couldn't believe it, but once it all sunk in we both looked at each other and thought how can we have a baby?  how can we afford it?  What will we do about jobs and work?  we decided to put our faith in Heavenly Father that this is Heavenly Father's plan and he will help us.  Well this shower was proof that Heavenly Father is here for us, he gives us great friends and family to help and support us and our baby!!  We truly couldn't do it without them.
   I got home and went through everything and just wanted to cry because I felt so blessed.  I love this baby so much and sooooo grateful we get to bring him into our family and so grateful for all those who help us to make this dream come true!  Thank you Thank you!