I love being a MOM!

So I haven't been great about up dating my blog because all my dreams have come true!!!  I love being a mom! I love just holding my baby and loving him.  I love my amazing husband that is hard working to provide for our family!  Everyone says to sleep when the baby sleeps so I try to just hold him for cuddle for at least one long nap a day, but I can't fall asleep most the time because I just love to look at my sweet baby Cavin, he brings tears of Joy to my eyes, he is everything I have ever dreamed of and more.  He prefect in every way!  I love waking up with him in the night because it's our special time, (yes I'm super tired but I love it)! so I a couple of things I love about being a MOM,
after he has a good feeding he usually falls off and has milk all over his face and this happy, thank you Mom look on his face and it makes me so happy to know I did that, I made this milk for my baby and I made him happy and full.  I'm the one helping him grow big and strong.
I love how he knows me, he looks for me when I talk to him, when I hold him he calms down, I love that he feels safe and loved with me, there is no greater feeling then feeling loved and needed, and he makes me feel that way!
I love when people say I'll give him back when he starts crying, I know it's the joke, but I love it, because I love that I'm the one that calms him down, I'm the one that makes him happy, I'm the one that can feed him, only me!!  What a special special feeling to know I'm needed to help this little baby grow and be happy.

I really love being a mom!!  a lot of morning I'll feed Cavin and then he'll go back to sleep and so I'll lay him by Marcus while I shower and get ready for the day, When I get out and see these two boys sleeping and cuddling together my heart just melts!  I love them so much both of them!!  I love when Marcus gets home from work and he just looks so excited to see us!!  I love that I can hand Cavin to Marcus while I get dinner or clean up a little and Marcus just takes him and loves him and the just relax together.  I don't worry about Cavin with Marcus I can trust him and he is so good with Cavin.
I feel so blessed to have married a guy who wants me to be a mom, (my dream)  he works 5 jobs so I can be home with my baby.  I miss Marcus horribly and wish we just had millions of dollars so we could just all stay home together, but I'm so grateful Marcus is a loving husband and father and understands this is so important to me, yes we have to cut back on some things but this is totally worth it!!  I love My boys so much!! I feel like I have the best Job in the WORLD!!  I love being a mom and a wife!!