Friday, April 20, 2012

good days and hard times

So a little personal, but the last few days, I've been a little overwhelmed or stressed maybe about money and jobs.  I know this baby is what Heavenly Father has in his plan for us, and I love that plan, it fits my life and plans too!!  But in the real world I worry about money like everyone else!  I guess I don't have perfect faith everything will turn out.   I think 85% faith and 15%  I worry as summer gets closer, as baby comes closer and no summer job comes closer I get a little worried.  I wish I had prefect faith, because it DOES ALWAYS work out!!! 
Yesterday, we got a call that we've been waiting for, for a few weeks!  Marcus and I got a cleaning job!!!  It won't cover everything we need but sure will do a lot for us!!  This is seriously a huge answer to our prayers!!  It will be a night job for a couple hours a night, something we can do with a baby with us or we can drop him at either of his grandmas'!!  (which I'm sure they'd love!) 
After we got the call that we got the job, I oh course stopped and thanked my Heavenly Father for this huge blessing but I did get that feeling of "see you can trust me, I have am here for you."  My Heavenly Father has never NEVER left me, he has never disappointed me.  It's the world that is disappointing and hard.
Yesterday I Wasn't feeling good, so I went to my Favorite sister's house and just sat around talking and playing with my super cute nephew, it was just what my baby/body ordered.  I don't know why but I was sooo tired and just needed some rest.   I'm so blessed to have a great family and support system on both sides! 
I was feeling better by the night time and went to a movie, It was soooo sad, I just kept thinking how much I love Marcus and never want to live a day with out him!!  I don't know what I would do, he is my everything, I couldn't have made it through this pregnancy without him, okay maybe I could if I had to, but soooo glad I didn't have to!
I got the baby's room cleaned more, and carpets shampooed!!  I feel like that room is ready for a baby!!  I woke up this morning and my huge belly just looked sooo big, I was looked at it, and little JaMarcus was going crazy, I want to say he was knocking to ask to get out! I said sure you can come out if you want to!!  :) I can't believe we only have 38 days left!!!  I hope it's no more then 38 days too!!!  I'm back to a light work out every day so I feel a lot better!!  I'm doing a lot of stretching too!!  I hear it helps in labor!  We'll see!!
Thank you for all the love and support!!!   

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