39 weeks

39 weeks, I thought I've never make it!! :)  this guy is not feeling so little anymore, he's getting so big, he dropped so really low but still kicking my ribs cause he getting big, I really hope he's not a 9 ponder!!  my guess and 100% a guess is 7lbs 6 ozs just because I think that'd be a good size!! 
The past few days I haven't felt good not horrible but  I just feel like I'm going to throw up all the time and just achy feeling. 
Sunday I was having some good contractions that where strong and coming every 10 minutes so I hurry and went to bed thinking I might be up a lot in the night, but I woke up at 5:30 am. I haven't slept through the night in months!!  wow it was so great!  I got up and went on my walk!  I was happy to get the sleep but I totally went to bed thinking this really could be it.....  sad.  I know I still have a week but for some reason I really feel he should come before and not after his due date!  I have a dr apt on Wednesday so we'll see what he says and go from there I guess. 
I'm working today and really just think I'm done!  I just stand here and the new girls can do most everything without me so I don't think I'll come back after today, well Tomorrow we don't work so I'll come clean and answer the phones, then I'll really be done!!  I need some Jessica time!!  rest, clean, and just do whatever I want to!!  ;)  who knows the next time I'll be able to just do my thing!  (hopefully I won't have anytime really soon!!) 
This is funny, but I think part of the reason you have to wait sooo long to get your baby here, besides them growing and developing, mom's have to wait and wait,  so like me I am so excited to meet him and hold him even though I have to get up all night and feed him I'm soo excited and ready!! I love love my little guy so much already that I'd so anything to get him here safe and soon!! 
I watch a YouTube video (I know I'm weird)  of this girl giving birth and it was crazy!!! I got a little nervous but then I thought that's not me and I'm really different then this girl.  I keep telling myself I'm strong and my body is made to deliver this baby!!! 
I think Marcus picked a name and I really like it!  It just fits and now we have everything ready and his name I just need HIM!!!  I keep telling him to just come out and I'll keep him warm and love him!  I guess he doesn't believe me yet!!  5 days til my due date so hopefully soon!!